i feel like it’s come to a point where there’s so much collaborating and featuring going on that not too many people have their own identity. how many songs have chris brown, or nicki minaj, meek mills, tyga, and now 2chainz as a feature. over the past couple years it’s dawned on me more and more…
about a year ago today, i was in a trance. it was unexpected, but i took to it. i adapted, like i often do. if you saw me, about a year ago today, you may have noticed a palpable difference in my demeanor. you may have noticed my heart beat louder than normal. my eyes glowed brighter. my words felt heavier, so i spoke more. my perception felt affected by a higher power and i feel blessed for it. minus some minor (read: major) health issues, i would like to feel that way at all times. that’s the rub. as unique and inspired and elevated as i felt, there were things about this trance that deserved my attention. i’ve since taken care of those health issues. for that, i thank God for guiding me through them. i do still wish for answers.
to questions like:
why did everyone look created from a nearly identical mold? almost like i could SEE what it meant to be made in His image. foreheads and jaws. idk.
why did my emotions become so tangible? i could emote and understand emotions better than people seemed used to. i got really excited about a lot. i cried a lil bit, too.
was the understanding of the nature of connectivity from person to person resulting from some unnatural balance?
i say balance because i also felt as if my balance was less of a “two feet on the ground” feeling but more of a “two feet on the earth’s axis” kinda feeling.
i’m rambling now, but if you read this far, love.
